Honestly, sa halos anim na taon kong pagiging isang online freelancer —  parang non-existent na rin ang social life ko.

I know.  I T S U C K S

Madalas, I find myself forgetting how to really communicate with people eh. This always results in me being either so tactless or absurdly funny. Yung tipong hindi na nakakatuwa minsan. Ganun. I remember that one of my goals talaga pagpasok ng 2017 is to drag myself outside and live a normal life. LOL

Kaya naman when my former colleague and lover Carlo, (charot lang, I just like reminiscing how I get used to adult jokes during my corporate stints in Ortigas) invited me to attend one of our ex-officemates mini birthday celebration, I immediately said YES. Okay, nag-dalawang isip ako ng mga 5 minutes, and I didn't said YES — I clicked 'Going' because it's an FB event invite. Haha




Ang saya! Yung 5 years (tama ba?...) na hindi kami nagkita-kita (of course I admitted that I always stalk them on FB haha) parang sakto lang those years to give us room to grow (or in my case to grow literally and figureatively!) Bwahahahaha!

From what I saw, we're no longer that twenty-something na madali ma-insecure at mag-judge sa isa't-isa. Dapat lang siguro no, kasi majujunda na kami! I still remember that feeling of having to work with a heavy heart during my last days on our company. Well, the main reason is I really wanted to have a baby back then, so I'm not sure which is which ang naka-add sa stress ko that time.

But I just realized even sa friendship and sa work, hindi maiiwasan ang mga samaan ng loob and all that petty little things. Parang ring sa teleserye na may isang kontrabida na pilit pasasamain ang isang maganda at masayang sitwasyon. Sa family nga din diba? Sa marriage... meron at merong mangyayaring unpleasant events and we can't do nothing to prevent all of it from happening. Sometimes, we just have to deal with it. Kasi wala namang taong perpekto. Boring pati ang life pag walang hassle. Agree?

Anyway, the girls are amazing. Meron talagang mga babaeng parang hindi tumatanda no? Hindi tumataba, etc. Bat ganown?!



I have been looking at myself in the mirror lately and asking: Eto na ba ang kabayaran ng katamaran kong maligo? Haha

May leeg pa talaga ako dati eh. Tsk.



There's so much that I've learned from this meeting. Actually, it's more like parang nagkaroon ako ng new perspective about life and struggles. I'd especially like to thank Carlo for kinda reminding me na what we have in our lives is not really a misfortune — it's actually a product of our own decisions. May point diba?

In the end, kung para kanino ang desisyon at kung hanggang saan ang kaya mong i-sacrifice for a certain decision, iyon ang importante. Whether it will work or not ... or you're being selfish or a martyr... it doesn't really matter.

It's Y O U R L I F E.
Living it is 100% up to you.

Stay sane,